I hope you find this letter with an abundance of goodness in your life. I am getting back into the rhythm of having all three children in the house. We also acquired a third dog. She is a rescue, that will accompany my oldest in the fall.
As I stated in the past, I share a fair amount of my life in my blogs. I also had declared that this Summer was dedicated to healing. Today’s story started many years ago.
“Healing is often ugly.”
In my thirties I went through a divorce and moved to Alaska. I had two very young children with me. As I began figuring out how I wanted to rebuild my life I also examined my body. After having two children and breast feeding for years, I was still fit and healthy. When I looked at my breasts I felt grief ..... It was shocking to me what had taken place over a short few years. Truthfully, I hated looking at my breasts in the mirror. Ouch… A vulnerable but truthful statement. I decided to get breast implants. Would I do it again? Very unlikely. At the time it was part of a healing for my self image.
I can’t say I regret getting the implants. I will say that I never felt completely comfortable with them. I also thought of the maintenance factor if ever the saline bags ruptured.
I decided to have them removed this Summer. I found a great doctor, picked the date and out the implants came, along with a little lift! I also had scar tissue built up inside my breasts which was removed. My children and husband picked up the household chores, laundry, cooking, pretty much everything. In my mind, I thought I was going to have a little vacation…. So not true..
I was blessed with a rainbow on the way to the surgery center. The last thing I remember before being put to sleep was asking my Guides and Angels to look over me. I visualized healing energy being poured into me.
When I woke up I was dreaming of getting ready to go hiking. I didn’t have too much pain… all was great. At home the first two days were easy, rest and a little pain medicine.
Because of the scar tissue removal I had drains placed. These became very cumbersome, ugly and I wanted them out. My arm movement was very limited. I was also surprised at how tired I was. I had work to do and was functioning at about 20%. The healing process was not so easy after all. The drains stayed in for 10 long days, so that meant no shower for 10 days. Each day I slowly gained a bit more energy. It was a frustratingly longer healing process then I had anticipated.
A friend came over while I still had the drains in place. Her comment was very fitting.
“Healing is often ugly.”
This is so true. Healing from anything can be raw, hard, ugly and vulnerable. Getting rid of the pain, or what caused the pain, can be scary. It is a process that takes commitment and courage.
Last night while comforting one of my children I was reminded of how difficult healing can be. She is afraid to let go and release her pain. I totally understand and will be there for her. We all have healing to do. Some of it physical and some of it emotional. It’s all scary. But the recovery feels so good!
I am over joyed with the results of my surgery! I feel like myself again and can’t wait to be able workout fully. So between now and my next letter, another phase of healing will begin in my home.
In closing I wish everyone the courage to heal the pain and find comfort in the reward of recovery. I know the healing that takes place is not just for us on an individual basis, but a collective whole.
We walk by your side. We lead you and show you the way. We open and close doors for you. We assist you in all the ways you desire. You called upon us at a different place in a different world and we are still connected . One of the greatest misconceptions is that life is too short. But life and love extends forever and beyond. What you are giving your attention to is only part of your awareness. You have many experiences and all are gifts. We ask that you remember that.
Light is always within and around you. Your truest self, your truest form is always with you and always understands the truth. The truth is that you are only light surrounded by energy. This energy is what is serving as your attention. This is what is creating the life you are aware of. Your purpose is to discover how many ways you can share your love and expand.
How many ways can you discover the brightness that exists in your soul? What can you create with this energy? You have the unique ability to travel thru all of time and to be everywhere at once. Because it is all happening now. Allow yourself to experience the love and fortune offered to you time and time again. It has always been with you and always will be. Your own light and love is what guides you through the dark. We rejoice as you discover your true identity. Bask in the light and discover your joy. We are merging together. Our thoughts are becoming stronger and our awareness advancing. It is all now.
In Conclusion. . .
When I received these words I visually saw a net around our soul… this is our awareness. This can also be recognized as our personal reality. Visualize the law of attraction wrapped around your soul. It’s more of a filter which allows things to flow through it… but thoughts (denser energy) can also get things stuck. This is when healing is needed.
Let’s fill our nets with miracles!